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“Let today be the day you finally release yourself from the imprisonment of past grudges and anger. Simplify your life. Let go of the poisonous past and live the abundantly beautiful present… today.”   Steve Maraboli

Don’t live in the what ifs, love in the what is…

Most of my whole life I have attempted to look in the rear view mirror to figure out why the hell I kept “screwing it” up.  “It” meaning life, my life and everyone in my life…. I have figured out that when I am not looking forward and keeping my eyes on the road, of course I am going to crash. Why in the hell fire and brimstone has it taken me so long to rip the rearview mirror off?  Learning to live in the moment has been a struggle for me. I perserverated for so long on the past and what “should have been” my childhood, my 20’s, 30’s and early 40’s. Obsessing about who wronged me and why. Accepting that I had and have a part in every event of my life has taken some time to resonate in my brain. Learning and growing in knowing there is “Power of Now” has taken more time than I would like for it too, but I am getting it. Turtle speed slow, but I am getting it.  Every day that goes by, I am learning to release anger and resentment that I held onto towards self and others. I can not go back and change situations, people, places or things. I think now as to why I would want to. This path is my life and I find gratitude in knowing I am awake NOW. I put one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. Getting the opportunity to live NOW is what I am to focus on. This thought process has come with maturity. Events recently in my life have allowed me to embrace forgiveness for the past so I can relish in the moment and enjoy the memories I am making daily.  I told myself this year was the year to blog more, write more and finish my book. Here we are in July and I have not done what I told myself I was going to do as of yet. Yes, I can beat myself up for 6 months of non compliance OR I can pick up today, share my blog and keep it moving. I have to go easy on myself as we all know “self” is our biggest critic. I can look at this 2 ways. I can look back and be frustrated with what I have not accomplished or I can look back and see the past 6 months of growth in all areas of my life. Spirituality, family, relationships, work, study, travel, and I could go on…You see everyday we have the opportunity to learn something.  When we embrace gratitude and humility on a daily basis, we do not have the time to think about yesterday, last week or last year except that it’s over, and a lesson good or bad was learned. Honestly I have stepped back from engaging in social media so much and have taken that time for me in working towards a healthier information outlet. Whether it be studying, reading, or listening to a podcast of one of the many on my Podcast App, I have truly realized that a peaceful mind, body and soul resonates with who I am wanting to become. For the past 10 years I’ve found myself trying to “catch up” or rather “make up” for the past. I became exhausted from this process. I can not ever make up, catch up or change yesterday.  If I can awake with gratitude and humility of the NOW, I can breathe a little better. If I can be open to TODAY, I can learn. If I can embrace where I am at and know I have the opportunity to be PRESENT, I can have peace. If I can forgive the yesterday’s RIGHT NOW, then I can love. Love what is, and you won’t have time to be stuck in what was…

May the angels above surround you all with kisses hugs and love….Amy C.

 

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